It comes in all forms!

September brought a lot of introspection. I was given so many aspects of my life to evaluate what is working and what isn’t. I’m so grateful because I can clearly say that I am now better off for it.

But it doesn’t always feel that way, does it? Growth, in the thick of it, can be frustrating, saddening, and kind of suck if we’re being honest. My experience was no different this time around. 

I spent the early parts of September very angry and frustrated. I once read that your anger is the emotion that tries to protect you the hardest, and it’s fitting here. There were some major things in my life failing, and they needed readjusting.
The start of September is also the start of the new school year. That transition is also a big upheaval to our family, and let me tell you that frustration and anger run rampant there, too.
Change is hard. Growth is harder. We were surrounded by it.

Oh, and writing, that should be the escape, right? Writing down my soul should be the easy part? I had just decided that my standalone needed to be two parts at the end of August, and let me tell you, I spent all of September trying to find my way through that fog. That was some of the hardest work of all this month. Dissecting every part of my story, deciding what stays and what goes, and trying to answer the question: what am I even trying to do here?! was painful. It shouldn’t be, but it was. 

Thankfully, the middle of the month brought my birthday and that is always a time for great positive reflection. I am reminded of all the love I have in my life. From my spouse and child to my friends, mid-September brings me plentiful feelings fulfillment. I needed that to refill my soul. 

Like any proper Act III, the end of the month brought me out the other side. I missed a show, but I cracked through the challenges of this WIP thanks to my dedicated support network.
I didn’t quite get to do all the things I thought needed to be done, but I made amazing discoveries on things I didn’t know I needed.
I struggled, but I persevered. Life is good.

And now we amp up for Halloween!!!! One of our favorite holidays of the year!!!
I absolutely positively LOVE spooky season!! I can’t wait!!